Before the fraud, before the hearings, before the shredding -- there were people who mentored junior staff, thanked their bosses, and held each other up as the building came down. The kindness is what makes the rest of it unbearable.
Eight emails from March 2000 to January 2002 – from peak Enron to two months after bankruptcy. Arranged in the order things fell apart.
The Body Shop
Ann Mora managed the Enron fitness center from 1991 to 2001. She was fresh out of college when she started. On January 23, 2001 – with the stock at $80 and Andrew Fastow’s CFO of the Year award still warm – she sent her farewell.
The Body Shop was one of the few spaces at Enron that cut across the hierarchy. VPs and admins used the same equipment, took the same classes, sweated through the same 6 AM step routines. Mora ran it for nearly a decade. Her goodbye went to the distribution list of everyone who had ever swiped a badge at the front desk.
As many of you know, I have been working at the Enron Body Shop since the fall of 1991. Way back then, I was fresh out of college with lots of ideas and no experience. But working here has given me more experiences than I could ever have imagined! I truly believe that it has helped make me the strong, confident, successful woman I am today. As Enron has high expectations of you, its' employees, so did you have high expectations for me at the Body Shop. For these past 10 years, I have strived to meet and surpass these expectations. I'll never forget those first classes I taught here when my group exercise teaching skills still needed a little "fine-tuning"… okay, a lot! As I watched some of you pick up your benches and stomp away long before class was over, I vowed to one day be one of the best instructors you have ever had. In this, and many other ways, you have inspired me to greater heights in my career and life.
Now it is time for me to seek new challenges. Last Thursday, I accepted a position as manager of a fitness center of my own. My last day at the Enron Body Shop will be Thursday February 1st. Although I am looking forward to the changes and new challenges, I will always look back at the Body Shop with so many fond memories and good feelings. But most of all, I will miss you, my favorite members! And although you have all been "challenging' and… well… downright demanding at times , I am so proud to have had the pleasure of knowing and working with each and every one of you. You are all such impressive individuals with a dedication to fitness that I do so admire. Stay healthy and live long happy lives! I feel so satisfied knowing that the programs and expertise I am leaving behind will help you all to do so.
May God's richest blessings fall upon you today and every day!
Sincerely,
Ann Patrice Mora
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She was support staff. She never touched a commodity or structured a deal. And yet: “I truly believe that it has helped make me the strong, confident, successful woman I am today.” The company’s fitness instructor believed Enron had made her who she was. She left on her own terms, in January 2001, to manage her own gym. She got out with her pride intact and her memories fond.
Remember the Body Shop. It comes back later.
“Thank You for Taking a Chance on Me”
On March 9, 2000, Janel Guerrero wrote to Steven Kean and Richard Shapiro in Government Affairs. She had been with the department for three years. She was leaving for the emissions trading desk – a commercial role, a step up. But before she went, she sat down to say what most people only think.
Steve: I want to thank you for recently creating the new Environment Health & Safety division. I think the reorganization and dedicated focus will benefit the entire company. I know that in the past I was often critical of the previous situation, and while I didn't necessarily enjoy complaining about it I thought it was important to show you the inefficiencies of what we were experiencing.
But what a difference Mike has made! In just a few weeks he has met on an individual and group basis with key people involved in "environmental" issues. He appears organized, and is doing a great job at sifting through the issues and prioritizing them. He seems genuinley interested in working with us as a team to develop goals and is enthusiastic and supportive of our ideas and suggestions.
We had a Clean Air Act meeting in DC this week which was well attended by our commercial people. The Environment Health & Safety Council also met yesterday and I think finally, this group will do more than just talk. Everyone was very excited at the end of the day.
Having said all of that, I also want to share some news with you. Ed Baughman and Greg Woulfe asked me to join the emissions desk and yesterday I accepted the mid-marketer position which will report to Ed. The timing is a little ironic, given the changes you just implemented but I am looking forward to some much-needed commercial experience.
Without getting too sentimental, I want you to know that I have really enjoyed working for you and Rick. I had no idea what I was getting myself into three years ago but it has turned out to be a very positive experience. Both of you are the architects of a valuable, powerful and exciting Govt. Affairs group. What I will remember and appreciate most is the diverse, talented and respectful group of individuals that you have hired these past few years. Everyone has been a pleasure to work with. But most of all, you and Rick have challenged me, encouraged me and given me the freedom to learn about an industry that I knew nothing about three years ago. Thank you for taking a chance on me and making me a part of Enron.
I know that I will be equally challenged as a mid-marketer and hopefully, if I crater, you and Rick will let me move back home. Thanks again for everything.
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“If I crater, you and Rick will let me move back home.” That line says more about the management culture in Kean and Shapiro’s group than any HR document could. Guerrero knew she could fail and still be welcome. She trusted these people enough to say so out loud in writing.
This is what mentorship looks like when it works. Someone shows up knowing nothing about an industry. Three years later, she’s ready for a commercial role. She doesn’t take the credit. She gives it to the people who gave her the freedom to learn. March 2000. The stock was at $70. Everything was still possible.
“I Answer to a Higher Authority Than Our Stock Price”
October 23, 2001. The SEC had opened its inquiry the day before. Andrew Fastow was about to be removed as CFO. The stock had lost two-thirds of its value in eight days. Ken Lay gave a speech to employees that morning. That afternoon, Sherry Butler wrote to him.
My congratulations on your address to us this morning
After listening to your speech this morning, I am now, more than ever, proud to be an Enron Employee under your leadership. Your commitment and fortitude under trying circumstances is always steady and going forward. During all the past years of success and truly phenomenal growth I along with my co-workers have been richly rewarded. Not only was I rewarded economically but also my friends and superiors contributed huge amounts of time and money toward others less fortunate and able to help themselves.
This is a direct reflection of your leadership and your giving back to the community. This leadership by example is what will sustain us in the coming months as we build our stock back up. I have no doubt build it up we will. There is nothing more invigorating than a challenge to show your true courage and ambition. Shifting blame and finding scapegoats has never been your style and I am very glad to see we are not starting down that road. I feel the up coming Chairman's Award will be a great boost to morale.
People measure success very differently. I feel just as successful today as a year ago because I answer to a higher authority than our stock price. Enron's helping of our neighbors during the floods and the New Yorkers during their tragedies makes me very proud to work at this company. Time is a better indicator of how well we persevered during these rather tumultuous times. Here's to a better view in two thousand two.
Regards Sherry Butler
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Butler did not mention trading, or mark-to-market, or special purpose entities. She mentioned floods. She mentioned 9/11. She mentioned the community work Enron employees did outside the building. Her version of Enron had nothing to do with the one that was about to appear on the front page of every newspaper in the country.
“I feel just as successful today as a year ago because I answer to a higher authority than our stock price.” The stock was at $16. In five weeks it would be at $0.26. She was measuring by a different instrument, and by that instrument, she was right where she had always been.
Reflections and Feedback
November 15, 2001. One week after Enron restated earnings back to 1997. The Dynegy merger was still technically alive. At 5:57 in the morning, Rick Craig, a mid-level pipeline employee, sat down and wrote to Stanley Horton, CEO of Enron Transportation Services.
Stan, I know you have a lot going on right now and probably don't need more emails that seem to be coming from off the wall but I felt the need to express some of my thoughts about what's going on right now and I hope you will take just a minute to listen. As you get older, you seem to reflect more on things that are happening around you and how it affects you and those around you. Some might perceive this message as 'sucking up' or 'jockeying for position' but nothing could be farther from the truth. This one is from the heart.
First, I want to say that I believe that many of us in the pipelines have taken for granted over the years the kind and quality of leadership that we have had. I want to thank you for being the kind of leader that you have been, one that's honest, straight forward, tells it like it is and yet will make the tough calls when they need to be made, but always in the interest of the company, the employees and its shareholders. I've been fortunate to be able to work with you over the last ten or so years and know that you have lived the Enron values. Had others run their business units the way you have run the pipes, I truly belive that we would not be where we are at today. Thank you for being the kind of leader you are. I for one appreciate it.
For those of us that have poured our hearts and souls into this company for most of our life, these are tough times and I know that you can certainly relate to that. And while my financial well being and security has certainly been impacted, there are others out there far worse off than me and I actually feel like I am truly blessed. Blessed to have been a part of such a great company, blessed to work with the kind of people that have made this company what it is and blessed to have the opportunity to rebuild a new and even better company. There are things in life much more important than money, family (grandsons), life, challenges in your work, health and happiness. I don't know what the future holds for me or the company, I just know it's part of a much bigger plan that I can't control. I also know that we can't look back. What's done is done and it happend for a reason. What we have to do is move on. If there's a meaningful role for me as we go forward, I will approach it with the same commitment, dedication and enthusiasm that I have any job I have had. If there's not, I'm at peace with that too. The success of this company, past, present and future will always be in our people. Thanks for the time and thanks for the leadership you have provided ETS all these years.
WOW, does this sound depressing or what? It's really not meant to be. I have a great attititude about what the future holds. Have a great day.
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Thank you Rick. Those were very kind words. Everything will turn out ok. I believe that.
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“Had others run their business units the way you have run the pipes, I truly belive that we would not be where we are at today.” Craig knew. The pipeline division was Enron’s original business – natural gas infrastructure, the unsexy part that actually made money. Horton’s people knew their CEO had run an honest operation inside a company that, elsewhere, had not.
Horton replied at 1:44 PM. Eight hours after Craig’s dawn letter, seven words.
“Even During the Last Few Days”
November 14, 2001. Jeff Royed resigned from Enron Risk to take a job at Energy USA over in the Galleria. He wrote to his colleague Jay Reitmeyer from his personal email, a self-deprecating note about trading up for a “smaller, less sexier and more conservative company.”
Reitmeyer wrote back: the departure had shocked people. He didn’t see it coming. Royed’s follow-up that evening was the kind of thing people say when they leave a place they genuinely loved, even when they know the place is dying.
Yeah, I think I shocked a lot of people, including Kam and others. Well, as shitty as the hours were, I actually liked risk. I will be working in Risk at my new position at EnergyUSA. However, a long day for them is 9-10 hours, which is more like a short day at Enron. I think fewer hours and better pay will make working conditions much better but I am really going to miss a lot of the people that I worked with at Enron. If was a very fun atmosphere to work in, even during the last few days with all of this merger talk going on.
JR
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A nine-to-ten-hour day at his new company constituted “a long day.” At Enron, that was a short one. He was escaping to better hours and better pay, and the thing he led with was that he was going to miss people. “Even during the last few days with all of this merger talk going on.” Even while the Dynegy deal was cratering and the earnings restatement was a week old. Even then, it was fun. Or at least the people were.
Christmas in Bankruptcy
On December 17, 2001 – two weeks after Enron filed for bankruptcy, two weeks after the mass layoff that sent 4,000 people home with $4,500 in severance – Anne Ring’s Aunt Mary wrote from her personal AOL account. She had been worried. She wanted Anne and Dick to know they were welcome to visit.
Anne’s reply was honest in the way people are honest with family. Not with the guarded optimism of the all-hands meeting or the brittle composure of the exit interview, but with the exhaustion of someone who has been living inside the biggest bankruptcy in American history and can’t pretend anymore.
Hi Aunt Mary and Uncle Bob,
Sorry it has taken me so long to write. Life is not good here at Enron. I have been asked to stay on until the company I work for is sold. I have been told I will be a part of the new company in it's proposed format. Many things can change between now and then and I am very skeptical as the company has told so many lies to so many people. It was so sad the day they let all those people go. I felt sad and guilty because I still had a job. Dick's company has basically been shut down. He was asked to stay on as a key person to help close down the business. His job will eventually end but we have no time frame. I know you are probably wondering about our financial situation. We had sold all our Enron stock in our 401K some time ago so we have done ok.
It is so wonderful that you will get to see everyone sometime during the holidays. Please tell them hello and MERRY CHRISTMAS. It sounds like everyone is doing well. Michele is disappointed we are not coming home for Christmas but Dick is on call and he wants to work as long as possible. He keeps saying he is going to retire but I think he will get bored and end up going back to work especially if I am still working. I wish I could say more but for so long now our lives have been consumed with being part of the biggest bankrupcy in history and it has become very depressing. Take care.
All our love.
P.S. Next time I write I promise to be more upbeat.
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“I felt sad and guilty because I still had a job.” Anne kept hers. Dick’s division was shut down. He was staying on as a “key person” to close the business – which meant he was being paid to dismantle what he’d spent his career building. They sold their Enron stock early enough to be okay financially, which is its own quiet drama: they saw something, or got lucky, or both. Michele was disappointed they weren’t coming home for Christmas. Dick was on call.
The postscript is the line that stays. “Next time I write I promise to be more upbeat.” As if she owed her aunt something better than the truth.
“The Straw That Broke the Camel’s Back”
December 9, 2001. One week after bankruptcy. Nelda Shealy had been at Enron for twenty years. She was there when InterNorth and Houston Natural Gas merged to become Enron. She had survived every restructuring, every strategy pivot, every CEO. She had a routine: arrive at 5:30 AM, work out at the Body Shop before the trading floor opened, shower, start the day.
On Friday morning she came in and found a note on the door. The Body Shop was closing at 7:30 PM Thursday. It was already shut.
Endurance, Encouragement, Hope and Bring Home Good Fruit
Endurance, Encouragement, Hope and Bring Home Good Fruit
I heard these words today in our Homily at church. They seemed to jump out at me with the current situation we have all been faced with at Enron.
You have endured through a tremendous storm. Although your colleagues have disappeared leaving you to hold the bag, although you are at the center of intense criticism and accusations from investors, shareholders and employees and although the media has been brutal, you have endured. Your endurance, I believe, gives us the endurance, the encouragement and the hope that Enron will stabilize and be as strong as it ever was and with a much stronger foundation. Turmoil serves only to strengthen and bring a community together. It was true on September 11th and it can be true at Enron. We have been shaken, but we cannot give up. With hope anything is possible.
Enron has been my home for 20 years. I was there when we became Enron. The last week was extremely difficult for all, 'the straw that broke the camels back' for me was when I came in to workout on Friday morning at 5:30 a.m. and the Body Shop was closed. A note on the front door, 'the Body Shop would be shutting down at 7:30 p.m. Thursday evening'. I had been so strong up to this point. After I found a place to shower, I cried for two hours. A culmination of events finally broke me. I had been so optimistic. I am blessed 'for the moment', I still have a job. I believe I would be blessed even if I didn't have a job.
I have not given up. As long as we have you and 'you can endure', I know we will all make it through this storm.
May God Bless You
Nelda Shealy
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In January, Ann Mora left the Body Shop on her own terms, proud of the programs she built, blessed by the members she served. Eleven months later, a twenty-year veteran arrived at 5:30 AM and found a note taped to the door.
It was not the stock price that broke Nelda Shealy. Not the restatements, not the SEC inquiry, not the bankruptcy filing, not the layoffs. It was the closed gym. The small daily ritual that meant the building was still a workplace and not a crime scene. When that was gone, she found a place to shower and cried for two hours.
“I believe I would be blessed even if I didn’t have a job.” She wrote that at 10:31 on a Sunday night, from a Yahoo address, to the CEO of a bankrupt company.
“Good Luck to All of Us”
January 29, 2002. Seven weeks after bankruptcy. Zhiyun Yang’s last day would be Thursday. The reason was not performance, not restructuring, not layoffs. The reason was a visa.
With Enron in bankruptcy, the company could no longer sponsor his work authorization. U.S. immigration law does not distinguish between a company that fires you and a company that ceases to exist. Yang had to leave the country.
Dear Everyone:
As some of you might have heard, I gave my one-week notification last Friday, my last day with Enron will be Thursday, 1/31. The reason of my leaving is purely visa status, I have nothing but joy working with you all in the last one and half years, the wonderful experience made the departure a painful decision.
I shall be around in the next few days should you need anything from me. I'd like to thank you all for making my work at Enron such a thrill experience, for your support and friendship, I hope I will have a chance and honor to work with you again in the future.
Good luck to all of us!
- Zhiyun
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He was not saying goodbye to a job. He was saying goodbye to a country. Eighteen months of work, a career built in a language that was not his first, friendships formed in cubicles that no longer belonged to anyone – and the thing he expressed was gratitude. “I have nothing but joy.” His departure was a “painful decision,” as if it were a decision at all.
“Good luck to all of us.” Not good luck to you. To all of us. He was leaving, but he was still in it with them.
“Yo!”
Two days later, January 31, 2002. Susan Scott had left Enron. She was contemplating her next move, possibly packing boxes. That morning, her sister called on the cell phone and put her niece and nephew on to sing happy birthday. Scott pulled over and cried. Then she went to her computer and wrote to a friend who had moved to Park City, Utah, to start over.
so this was my quote of the day.....
Our chief want is someone who will inspire us to be what we know we could be. -Ralph Waldo Emerson, writer and philosopher (1803-1882)
wow, huh?
anyway, got your email with the articles for wahso...going to read them right now. looks like i may be moving tomorrow, so i'll let you know what the future holds for me when i have a better idea.
more importantly, i wanted to tell you how proud i am of you. not only for striking out to park city on your own, but also for making the impression you obviously have on the people with whom you work. it's often hard to see when you are the person in question, but i can tell you from my perspective that the people you work & associate with think very highly of you. and, i'm thrilled that windy ridge vocalized their appreciation of you and your skills...definitely something you deserved to hear. it is a great gift to be a person others have confidence in and want to be around, and those are qualities that you possess without question.
driving into work this morning my sister called on the cell phone, said she had a special message for me...then mack and sally got on the phone and they sang happy birthday to me...i'm such a sap i couldn't help but to start tearing-up. after they hung up i took a moment to examine where i am in my life right now, and i'm happy to report that i am pleased. i tried to imagine my emotions had i decided to stay on w/ the group and i don't think my optimism would be nearly so great. my point is this, sometimes not knowing exactly what the future holds frees you to imagine and dream of things you normally wouldn't. so to you i say, the sky is the limit....dream, imagine, explore. we are both going to do great things in and with our lives. but what i think we need to realize is the scale of those things may be smaller (or even grander) than we'd imagined...point being, we just need to try and be aware of those opportunities which come along every day that afford us those great moments be they large or small.
cheers!
suebob
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Two months after the largest bankruptcy in American history, on her birthday, Susan Scott sat down and wrote to a friend to say: I am proud of you. Dream. Imagine. Explore. The scale of the great things may be smaller than you imagined. Or grander.
The Emerson quote she chose that morning: “Our chief want is someone who will inspire us to be what we know we could be.” That is the entire premise of the company she just left, stripped of the stock options and the mark-to-market accounting and the special purpose entities. Someone to inspire you to be what you know you could be. Ann Mora believed it in January 2001. Janel Guerrero believed it in March 2000. Nelda Shealy still believed it in December 2001, crying in a bathroom after the gym closed. Susan Scott believed it on her birthday in January 2002, with no company left to believe in.
The difference is that Scott aimed the inspiration at one specific person, by name, and meant it. That is the version that survives.
See Also
Stanley Horton – CEO of Enron Transportation Services, recipient of Rick Craig’s letter
Steven Kean – Chief of Staff, Janel Guerrero’s mentor in Government Affairs
Ken Lay – CEO, recipient of letters from Butler and Shealy
Anne Ring – Enron employee, survivor’s guilt at Christmas